If I had the time and leisure to take out canvas and brush again, I thought I would have a picture consisting of a tall tower, with little white faced human figures in various stages of a tower-jumping process.
These are students, depicted as being expelled from the ivory tower of academia. Some parachute, some bungee jump, some take flight and parasail, for better or worse, to distant places, some, most, I think, crash to the bottom in a straightforward tragedy.
Because I don't know which type I am, it is hint suggesting that I belong to the majority: already dead, still unknowing, and will remain rather unrecognisably unknown.